Things I have wanted to eat lately:
- one of those awesome burgers
- black licorice
- sour keys
- a whole bowl of cherries
- a whole bowl of ice cold grapes
- dill pickle chips
- sour keys
- hot dogs
- beef jerky
- macaroni and cheese
- sour keys
Things I have actually eaten lately:
- cottage cheese
- eggs
- fruit smoothies (light on the fruit, heavy on the greek yogurt and soy milk)
- more cottage cheese
- salads
- more salads
- popcorn
- cheese
- cheese
- half a piece of bacon when Adam wasn’t looking
- cheese
Things I miss:
- occasionally eating some of the things on the first list without experiencing soul-crushing guilt
- sleeping on my stomach
- my grandmother
- hot baths
- not taking 24 pills a day
- wearing jeans
- these weirdos
- being able to hug Adam and have my whole body pressed against his, instead of this weird awkward A-frame we have to do lately
Things I’m loving:
- my big mixing bowl belly
- the way strangers smile when they see me waddling towards them
- walking past our guest room and seeing this view
- the baby buy and sell group where I found this sweater for $4
- the way the Demon baby stops squirming and somersaulting whenever I speak to it – making me hopeful that I’ll have wonderful motherly soothing powers
- making Adam lift things for me (ohmygod seriously it’s the best. THE BEST.)
Things I’m looking forward to:
- Um, meeting this little person? Yeah. Just a teensy tiny bit.
Things I am also *not* looking forward to:
- Meeting this little person. Because hi! We’re only at 32 weeks. Please stay in there a little longer, ok? Every week that passes makes me breathe a little easier, knowing that chances of baby being big and healthy and strong increase. Each week I google “babies born at 3_ weeks” and marvel at how – even though they look scrawny and are in incubators – they still look okay! They still look like real babies.
So there you have it, my life in lists.
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